It's funny, I read that as being a positive way of looking at things (until the second last paragraph, anyway *hug*). Channelling a bit of que sera, sera, is probably better for one's health (in every respect) than a lot of other ways of handling the current situation, and of course, spending the summer with the wee lass is always a good thing (I envy you). It's not apathy, it's letting go. :)

You will be employed next year. That is good. You will be employed, in all likelihood, at something more tolerable (even if only by virtue of its not being where you are now). That's also good. The possibility that you'll actually get something fabulous is still there -- there's still time. That's definitely good.

You've done your part to get this sorted, for now, so you've earned the right to let go of the stress of outcome pondering and settle into the summer. Don't let all of this mayhem take away from enjoying it -- that's what would be sad.